An Entrance and an Exit // life + camp nano + another hiatus + other such paraphernalia

*casually slinks in*

Did you miss me? (If not, please go away.)

Yes, ’tis I, returned from the void of… everything. And boy howdy, do I have stories to tell! If you’re not sitting on a stable, flat surface right now, I highly suggest reseating yourself. What follows is a long and intense summary of the 30 days I spent away from my blog, and, well… it’s long and intense.

 

// life //

Coming into April, I thought the biggest thing that could POSSIBLY happen during the month would be Camp Nano. I continued to think that even as my dad and I left on a short, two-day trip together, during which I was certain I would get lots of writing done.

HA.

As I sat in a hospital ER nine hours from home while my father had surgery for a heart attack, I realized I miiiight have been mistaken.

(No, you didn’t misread that. My dad had a heart attack. A major one. While we were away from home. And it was terrifying.)

Fortunately, my older brother lives in the area, so he became my primary taxi to shuttle me back and forth to the hospital while everything was going down. (To the past me who always dismissed the idea of getting a driver’s license with, “Pffffft, what would I do with it even if I had one?” — I have but one thing to say to myself:

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The first trip to the hospital, after dad had been brought by ambulance and we were waiting in the emergency room, I was allowed to go into the back to see him. Unfortunately for my timorous soul, I wasn’t allowed to take anyone with me. Which means that I, who was already on edge, had to walk through the big metal doors that lock behind you by myself, and stand in the hospital ER by myself, while frenzied nurses and the grievously injured clogged up the halls.

And there I was. By myself.

It was at this point in time (after the doors had already locked and there was no hope of getting out again) that I realized I had no idea where I was going. Looking more like an abused puppy than I care to admit, I wandered up to one of the nurses, gave her my most pathetic stare, and whimpered, “…I can’t find my dad.”

I must have looked as pathetic as I felt, because she took pity on me and abandoned whatever she was doing to help me find him.

(Moral of the Story: If you want to gain support in the ER, look as lost and confused as possible.)

(I must also mention that when I DID find him, he had the nerve to say, “The one bright spot in all this is that at least I got to have a hamburger before it happened!” If he didn’t have innumerable IVs stuck in him, I might have slapped him.)

But it all worked out in the end. The Lord provided us with miracle after miracle, from minor things like keeping my sanity intact, to major things like sustaining my father through a heart attack that probably should have killed him. A week later mom and Anna were finally able to join us, and our”exile in a foreign land” became much more bearable.

Though every single one of us had a massive adrenaline letdown after it was all finally over…

 

// camp nano //

Due to the unforeseen circumstances chronicled above, my grand cabin plans took a nose-dive. I wasn’t able to participate nearly as much as I had hoped, and my people were often left to fend for themselves. That being said, I was able to get one thing right. Remember how I originally said that my cabin was called “The Sarcastic Scriptorium?”

Yeah, well…

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Of course, I didn’t leave it that way, but it was fun while it lasted. The very first message in the entire cabin was this:

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In fact, I think Snaps and I had a little too much fun together, until at one point I realized there were 87 messages of just… well…

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But to give you a clue as to how crazy the rest of the cabin-members were, this was a recap of our first week together:

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I’m sorry I couldn’t have participated more, but all in all, I think we had a good time together…

 

// the epiphany //

This is the important part, so don’t skip it:

Two weeks stranded away from home with a parent in the hospital leaves a lot of room for thinking. It also instigates serious introspection, and as I whiled away the hours in a mixed state of anxiety and prayer, I came to realize something.

Life is short.

Sure, it’s a pretty basic epiphany. But at the same time, having that truth made so brutally personal forced me to take a closer look at my own short life. And what I discovered was this:

Life is short, but full of distractions.

Sometimes, those distractions aren’t inherently bad — like my writing. I always strived to write for God’s glory, and that’s a good thing. The bad part comes in when you’re so focused on doing this one thing for God’s glory that you ignore all the other things.

 

// hiatus //

And that, my friends, leads me to my final point: Another hiatus. I hate dropping my blog again so soon after picking it up, but I feel strongly that the Lord is prompting me to take another break from the internet — much like I did last May. I turn eighteen in two months, and the thought of being a legal adult has spurred me to some MASSIVE life examination. The conclusion?

I’m not where I should be spiritually.

I want my relationship with God to be deep, personal, tangible, exciting. I don’t want to be forever trapped on the edge because other things are distracting my focus. I want to spend more time with my family. I want to smell the roses without worrying about the pressure of writing deadlines that must be met. I want to enjoy the Spring outside my window instead of constantly staring at a screen. And lately, my writing has prevented me from doing that.

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I quite agree, Sam. The question is, will I return?

*dramatic pause*

…yeah, that prank’s not gonna work a third time. Yes, I fully intent to return at the end of May. You have my solemn word of honor.

 

// other such paraphernalia //

I originally included this in the title only because I thought it sounded funny, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt morally obligated to add it to the post.

So here you go. Some random paraphernalia to brighten your day:

“I wouldn’t worry, my friend.” Emolas shrugged. “They won’t leave us here forever. Two Aeterna wandering the wastes alone — oh yes, their cynicism will turn into suspicion, and suspicion always leads to questioning.”

Liriel rubbed the space between her eyes and sighed. “And what, pray tell, happens then?”

“Oh, they’ll torture us, probably,” Emolas said cheerfully. “First-class method of gaining sensitive intelligence! I’d try it myself, if I weren’t morally opposed to the entire concept.”


Anyway, my minions, it’s time to bring this long and scattered post to a close. I’ll miss you all terribly, but in the meantime, enjoy your Spring! Get lots of grass-stains! Avoid bees like the plague!

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN (in June), I BID YOU ALL A VERY FOND FAREWELL!!!

~Sarah

 

17 thoughts on “An Entrance and an Exit // life + camp nano + another hiatus + other such paraphernalia

  1. I’m so sorry to hear about your dad 😦 I’m glad that everything turned out okay!

    Becoming an adult sounds pretty scary. Definitely take some time away if you feel you need it 🙂

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  2. Farewell, wherever you fare, and may your eyries receive you at your journey’s end!

    I’m not sure if that entirely fits the situation, but it’s close enough. Wow, what a month! 😥 Praise God for taking care of you and your dad! He is so good to us.
    I shall miss you. I sympathize with the life examinations…I’m turning sixteen soon and feeling a bit shocked…like, this is it? This is all I’ve done with my life for the last sixteen years?? 😀

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  3. I am quite convinced you are trying to kill me.

    I mean, one month without postfulls of sarcasm? Barely tolerable – it takes a tough one to make it to the end still mentally intact.
    But A WHOLE TWO MONTHS WITHOUT IT???????
    That’s it, farewell world! I shain’t survive it.

    AHEM.

    That being said, I understand completely, Sarah. Go out there, spend time with God and family, smell the roses —- and when you’re ready to pick up blogging again (whether that be next month, or in a few months), your minions will be here waiting 😉

    PS. But SERIOUSLY, PRAISE GOD for taking care of your dad! I’m so glad everything’s okay! He is good all the time, and all the time He is good. ❤ I'll be praying for y'all.

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  4. It’s glad to have you back, even if only for a day. 😉
    The LORD truly is amazing! Thank you for your incredible testimony and being willing to share your struggles with all of us.
    And your cabin looks AWESOME. XD If you do it again next year, I’m definitely joining. 😀

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  5. Boy do I get the hospital thing. Got very familiar with the layout of one last year. XD And now I’m rather glad and sad I didn’t join your cabin- sounds like a loadful of fun. Farethewell– UNTIL JUNE.
    Because if you don’t…

    We will find you.
    AND GET YOU.

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  6. I am SO glad that your dad is okay!!! And thank you again so much for letting me be a part of your cabin. We all had a blast. XD I’m going to miss you over your hiatus, but until you return, namarie!

    Also, to quote Jo… if you don’t come back,

    We will find you.
    AND GET YOU.

    😀

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  7. Oh my goodness, I’m so glad your dad’s okay!
    Camp Nano looked awfully fun anyway. (GO AWAY, MISS PEER PRESSURE, YOU ARE NOT WELCOME.)
    Please come back soon. I miss my weekly dose of elfish sarcasm. 😉

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  8. As soon as I saw this in my inbox, I grinned and thought happily, “Sarah’s BACK!”

    Then I read the title…

    And. Yeah, I’m basically with Julia’s above (like REALLY above, but I read it anyway because I’m a stalker :P) comment. “I shan’t survive.”

    (And I’m completely with you on the whole driver’s license thing. I now have a list a mile long of could-haves when it comes to my still not having my license. It makes me wonder how many things I’m as naive about right now. :D)

    I love the cabin name. 😉 It sounds as if you were still able to have some special times of fun and memory making while scaring off all the sane people in your cabin.

    And I’m so excited to see how God’s going to bless you as you seek to honor Him by listening to His voice and striving to live life intentionally. I’m sure that God has amazing purposes for your writing, but I’m glad you see that that while, yes, you can certainly glorify Him through your writing, there are so many other ways to also praise and glorify Him that cannot be ignored either.

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  9. Oh, wow. I’m so glad your dad is alright. ❤
    Your cabin sounds pretty awesome. XD Kendra was telling me about some of the things that happened in it.
    I hope you have a wonderful hiatus! We will be eagerly awaiting your return.
    (At least I shall be. XD)

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